The year of 2002 has become a time of change or transition for me.
Personal circumstances in my life have altered my outlook for each day
and my goals for the future. Before, my days were limited to
pleasing others in my world and to cementing a lifelong relationship
with the man of my life. Now, I am making it my mission to not so
much “pleasing” others, but to make a contribution to making life in
general better for those not in my immediate world.
My role in a full-time work environment is somewhat satisfying and will
continue to be for a long time. There may not be room for
advancement, but I am very much appreciated, and to me, that is reward
enough in itself to offset moving up in my career field. I can say
that I have accomplished short-term goals, such as purchasing a home,
having a beautiful, wonderful child, faithfully loving a man with all my
heart and soul, and starting each new day with a happy and content
My struggle with the outside world is more within myself. I am
basically a conservative, quiet personality and I have always kept a low
profile. I do not intend to put myself in a bright spotlight, but
I do wish to maximize my few talents to the fullest, and interact with
I believe those who do know me, consider me loyal and steadfast, honest,
and sincere. I try to uphold a code of ethics, if you will.
I can honestly say that when people see me, they can think, “There
goes a good, decent human being.” Don’t get me wrong, in my
past, I have done things that I’m not so proud of, but I have evolved
into a better person because of all those things that I have
The past several years have been very trying, first with the death of my
70 year old father, then the death of my 11-year-old stepdaughter, and
finally the failure of my second marriage of 7 years. All of these
events together have opened my eyes, and it has been revealed to me that
yes, I may be a good, decent human being, but I have really only served
myself and not others (Romans 12 and
The success of my career has been established, with a few small minor
goals pending. The success of my marriage and family life is
questionable. The success of my life… I have only just begun.